Where Nicky was forced to go to war by his family or the church because he was seen as an abomination for some reason. Any reason is fine, he could be a magical creature, a sterile omega, gay, trans or something else. I just want Nicky forced to fight in a war he does not believe in with the knowledge that he was sent there to die by the people who are supposed to care for him. He knows it as a fact that he is unnatural, disgusting and shameful and that the people who he loves are right to treat him as a lesser being undeserving of love or even respect. All the other men going to war also know this about him and treat him horribly because of it.
Yusuf later has a lot of problems wooing Nicolo and making him understand that Yusuf loves him because Nicolo couldn't even imagine why someone so wonderful and amazing as Yusuf would even look at something as disgusting as Nicolo
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Joe/Nicky Nicky thinks he is unworthy of love
Date: 2021-02-27 11:35 pm (UTC)Yusuf later has a lot of problems wooing Nicolo and making him understand that Yusuf loves him because Nicolo couldn't even imagine why someone so wonderful and amazing as Yusuf would even look at something as disgusting as Nicolo